The draw was for 1-3 cards and the deck only gave one.
The question: How can I be more gentle with myself?
I mentioned that this deck uses repeating items that I find indicate actual connections between concepts. In this case, the hawk and stylized shield is a direct copy from the High Priestess (seen yesterday); in that card, I see her as having just come through a doorway suggested by two pillars, while here she's on the other side of the door with the pillars below her. (Six: reconfiguration into a superior form of order following the collapse of an old, stagnant one.) A Wand is leaning across the threshold and the moth is from the Hermit.
(I am rambling past this point.)
Wands are power, authority, and action. The location of this one indicates that such things may be needed to cross the threshold, but those same things must also be abandoned, passed through, in order to enter. Also left behind are the boxes in which things may be put in rigid categorization.
My first thought was that the Hermit Moth is entering the door. The Hermit is the way of seeking truth or improvement through solitary effort; in the context of spiritual development, the Hermit is seeking what the High Priestess already has. Moving backward through the Majors is not a regression but a return to a root state.
The moon is tidal magnetism, drawing Water (emotion/intuition), and also orderly change. Despite the color, my impression of the door and Wand is that they're made of steel, not silver, and are therefore an artificial human creation.
...Judgment is not a card that I know well at all because, I realize now, it's barely ever turned up in any past readings with any deck, so I never had to connect with it much. The typical form of the card (Waite-Rider) shows the Last Judgment from the POV of the faithful/righteous, who are raised in body and spirit from death and taken into God's kingdom for eternity as Creation ends behind them. That sounds like a positive form of the Tower, in a sense, or Death expanded to include the entire world (accurate, since the Last Judgment happens at the end of the world).
The things of this world - past efforts, acquired power, order, focused searches, and the structure of human ways - stays behind. The thing sought for is found, at the price of abandoning everything that has made the discovery possible. The crutches are left beside the ocean.
The basic idea of Day 2: Shuffle a favorite playlist, listen to the random song, draw 1-3 cards asking what message should be learned from that song today and use them alongside the music to create a complete message.
I did three because I thought that more information would make for an easier interpretation, but I was very wrong about that, so I gave into my inner cheater and drew modifying cards for all three, which...were questionably helpful. I am so, so rusty, and I didn't get much that was comprehensible out of this, especially with the song added in. x_x
The song was "Doomsday Party (The Luna Sequence Mix)," original by Sybreed. A Youtube video of it, and if you scroll down a little to a comment by Voltron Speed, you'll find the lyrics (which don't match exactly because the remix switches things around): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTDH_SxVM-Y For ease of reference, reproducing the unique parts of the lyrics here (no repetitions):
We stop all motion for a while and bleed just to feel alive / Like a wave submerging us, we fall and shiver, / The welkin starts to ignite / (doomsday party is starting out / starts to ignite) / We love and hate on fast forward / The momentum is getting wrong / Adrenaline is gasoline / The taste of dust is getting strong / Silhouettes flicking in dead lights / Ten thousand degrees Fahrenheit / We burst in solid centigrade / Heat transfer amplified / Kinetic figures all around / Dangerous girls in overdrive / Blood pressure widening our eyes / Ecstatic, polarized
And this is how we realize the tragic prize of wasting time / It doesn't make sense if we die / And we'll know in the end if we truly lived
Testing endurance to defy the low performance / We deny all body failure, aiming high / Our breath intensified / Watch now, the sun is fading away / And still the skyline is glowing in bright white / Let's drown in such an assembly / Let's yell until it all turn to black
And we know it won't last forever, it's nothing but a lie / A frail substitute for joy / Still, we want to define the line where life and death unite / Where night and day intertwine
Listing each original card with its modifier:
1) Queen Cups + Universe
2) Temperance + High Priestess
3) 5 Cups + Justice
Initial impression: that's a ridiculous number of Majors for a six-card (technically three-card) spread. Someone is talking loudly.
- 1: Queen Cups
Alien/unnatural sensation. Emotional influence from distant past and distant future. Overintellectualization of emotions plus detachment from the present. Effects uncertain; chance of sudden suffering, insight, completeness, or stagnation.
- 1: add Universe:
...I WISH I KNEW MOVING ON. C_C;; (I know what Universe is, but I am utterly stumped about how it could add meaning to the main card.)
- 2: Temperance:
Completed process of positive development through harmonious combination. Alone > apart > union >synergy, pursuing original goal with added strength from the blending. Order rising out of confusion.
- 2: add High Priestess:
Passing to and fro from unknown to unknown with strength; moving fearlessly/confidently/trustingly despite lack of certainty. Past and future unknown and unimportant. Only movement in faith exists. Conclusion: trust in process of multiplying own ability through blending with other-than-self. Risk of not seeing that event coming, so must remain prepared.
- 3: 5 Cups:
Echo of emotional distance from Queen Cups. Emotional blindfold, having to feel forward; something is out there, but not sure what or where. Searching for novelty or hoped-for goodness in an empty place, apart from others. Wishful thinking.
- 3: add Justice:
Inflexibility. Mercilessness. Stereotypical Social Darwinism - brutal law of uncompromising strength from which the judge is not exempt. Power to join/heal or separate/harm, but restricted view prevents balance in favor of cruel judgment. Conclusion: Deliberate separation; belief that all beings must stand alone to meaningfully advance. Stubborn independence even when it hurts oneself.
- Adding the song:
This deck likes making its own structure and I think I see where it's going. The starting point is divided dramatically in half with both cards separately occupying the same space, Schroedinger's Cat style. The collapse of the waveform is approaching (in the lyrics, the end of the world has already arrived), and it will allow only one option to manifest. Queen Cups > 5 Cups/Justice: severing from everything due to the worship of bitter strength and the desire to test one's unsupported power against hopeless odds. Universe > Temperance/High Priestess: ending is a melding with everything without mourning, finding meaning in small and present wonders. Redefinition of values means that the ending may not even matter, as one's true goals are somewhere completely different.
In conclusion: I need to remember how this deck communicates and not expect it to operate according to the rules. If I try to force it into a predefined pattern, it tends to say nothing, but when I just let it go, it's very eloquent.